Just a quick note as I’m POOCHED for today.  I got up before 7 and went for a run and biked back to my parent’s house to clean.  It’s a good sized house, takes about 2 hours to clean, but I get some needed $$$ for it. ;) Always good.

But all the activity has left me a tad drained.  I’m trying very hard to keep myself fueled (not just today, everyday) but am finding a lot of obstacles.  Ok, one obstacle: Ed. Ugly, unwelcome Ed.  I’m very frustrated by this current slip in my progress, and it’s especially hard because I don’t feel like I can share my struggles with anyone.  Even if I was still in treatment, I know that my therapist is on holidays right now.  My roommate, close friends, and family all saw me doing so well the past few months…I don’t want to disappoint them with the choices I’ve been making lately.

I have however reached out a bit…kind of.  There is an AMAZING website created by Shannon Cutts, auther of Beating Ana: How to outsmart your eating disorder and take your life back. She firmly believes that relationships replace eating disorders, and created Mentor Connect.  This is a website that survives off of donations and is an amazing community full of wonderful people who have somehow been touched by eating disorders and/or recovery.

I’m currently reading Shannon’s book and was both intruiged and hopeful for help, so I checked out the website last week.  After a short application process (easy-peasy), I created my profile and began searching for a mentor (you can also join the site as a mentor).  I think I’ve found one…we have only e-mailed (and likely will…me being in Canada and all ;) ) so far but I read her bio and feel like we are a good ‘match’.  I’m excited and releaved to know that someone, somewhere, is out there who knows what I’m going through and can help me through this time.

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