I’m attending an ‘event’ of sorts for our local ED coalition tonight to discuss possibly implementing some support groups. We’re supposed to think about what ‘support’ means to us and how we would best be given that support. For me, accountability is KEY. Just having someone to tell my goals to each week takes them out of my head and makes them more concrete.  I’ve been sharing my goals in more detail with my mentor, but I also know that if I put them out there any way I can, I will be that much more accountable.

Last week was a hard one – family pet’s death and another one missing (but returned!) – and I realized that my first response to stress is still ED behaviours. That’s got to change…awareness is a good first step though I think. :) I did complete all my goals, although found that trying to make a ‘complete dinner’ after a long day of work (nannying a 2 year old) sometimes just doesn’t happen. More to work on I suppose.

SO – here goes this weeks goals:

Goal: to continue to challenge Ed-head, disagree and disobey ED
Obj1: have a complete MEAL (maybe lunch will be easier to make than dinner) 3 times this week (carb, protein, veg.)
Obj2: Only walk (not run) this week until I’m 100% better (fighting a nasty chest cold at the moment…isn’t is summertime??? grrr). basically, LISTEN to my body and do a self-check-in before I leave each day to see if I really want to/am ok to go
Obj3: Create ‘pocket affirmations’ (I have several extended-family functions this weekend with people who, lets just say, don’t really put me in a healthy state of mind…very triggering. My hope is that I can maybe bring with me a few little positive notes to help combat a lot of the negative thoughts I have that tend to dominate)

My mentor shared with me a really great ‘tidbit’ that’s stuck with me this week so I thought I’d share with you all:

“Do the next right thing.” To me that means, after a slip-up/rough day,I don’t have to wait til the morning, Monday, or the first of the month to start fresh again and work on recovery.

Have a good week everyone! :)  I’m hoping that this stupid bug works it’s way through my system a.s.a.p! BOO! I’m so SICK of being SICK all the time!

Advertisement